Still Hung Up On HER

I like her, I like her very much, I've actually talked about her before, but I only MENTIONED her in one post, and in another one I talked about how I was jealous of the relatioship she had whith her boyfriend.. but I just realized, I never dedicated a post to HER (I'm sorry, I'm gonna keep on calling her "her" since no other name fits her right, but her own, which I can't use here), and I've been wanting to for a while now...


I actually met her in one of the last places I ever expected to meet somone, when I went to this place I was just expecting to spend sometime there whith my friends and have some fun, and that would be it... well I was wrong,  after that, a few things happened, for example IT became a new "tradition", I made a whole new group of friends, and I also met her... Now, I'm not gonna go as far as saying that she changed my life, because according to how things are going, I'm gonna have to get over her eventually, whithout nothing ever happening between us (she has a boyfriend after all), so all that I'm feeling right now, will stop and things will go back to how they were before I met her..


The truth, is that at first, I just got to see her, and that was enough to call my atention... After that thanks to our higly evolved social networks, I got to "meet", all I actually got to do was read her profile, which was enough to start geting me hung up on her.. She was a lot "like me", or at least that's what I thought at the moment*, the truth is that we do have things in common, and some of them are things I had in common whith ther I didn't have in common whith anyone else (well, maybe my brother), which made it all the more special.. Now I  know new friend whith whom I share those interests (my so called X-Men)..


*I now realize that maybe I let myself idealize her a bit too much, the truth is that I only saw her three times, and I only got to speak to her 2 of those times.. Granted, I do get to read about her in her.. well, let's call it a "blog" (I don't know how else to name it), and maybe there I got to see deeper than what you can see when you talk to somone in person.. But the truth, is that I hardly got to know her in person.. And it's easy to idealize somone in that position.. I'm not saying that she's not very nice, and that we don't have things in common, all I'm saying is that it's probable that we're not anyway near as similar as I thought at first (for example: all those things we have in common, she has them "more" than I do, and at first I thought that was even better, now I realize I was just fooling myself).. 


Maybe it happened, cause in a way I'm lonely, and my "love life" is the only thing I feel is a total failure right now.. I love my family (well, most of it), I have great friends, and this year I've made new and completely different friends outside my school (for the first time ever), and I'm done whith school, and I know exaclty "where" I'm headed next year.. But in my eighteen years of life, I have never had a girlfriend, and I've always been the girlfriend kind of guy.. So I guess I'm kind of a failure in that way.. And then she came in and it was so easy, (as I said I don't meet much people outside of school, so I don't meet a lot of women.. and even though there are some of my friends whith whom I think we would be good, I'm not about to risk any friendships unless it's somone I really want to be whith), but it really wasn't.. since she wasn't "achivable"...


And I know, that you maybe thinking "well, If you realized that you idealized her, whats the big deal?", well the truth is that I realized too late, now I'm way too hung up on her, and I don't really want to let go of her, and of this image I have of her, (and even whithout idealizing her, she still would be more than good for me).. I guess that all I can do now, is wait till yime does its work, and I'm over her, cause I don't want to stop seeing her, cause even if I can't be whith her that way, I know that she could be a great friend for me (specially once I'm over her)

If You Can't Fight Them.... Join Them

Okey, this is a questonary, that I found 1st at Martin's, who had copyed it from Tumblr, and then I found it at Molly's who copyed it from Martin's.. Now, I don't think any of my followers will like this very much sinceI don't think they're big HP fan's and this is an HP questionary (I don't think that Martin and Molly folog my blog, and I know for a fact that Tumblr doesn't).. So, sorry followers, but as I said a million times before this blog is for me (I do hope, that there's at least one HP fan between my followers, so that at least somone can have opinions on my answers).

List the books in order from your favourite to your least favorite: Deathly Hallows, Half Blood Prince, Prisoner of Azkaban, Order of the Phoenix, Chamber of Secrets, Goblet of Fire, Philosopher’s Stone.

List the movies in order from your favourite to your least favourite: Deathly Hallows parte 1,   Philosopher’s Stone, Chamber of Secrets, Order of the Pheonix, Goblet of Fire, Half Blood Prince, Prisoner of Azkaban(HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT)

Top 5 favourite characters? Luna Lovegood, Herminoe Granger, Albus Dumbledore, Ron Weasley, Sirius Black.

Five least favourite characters? Dolores Umbridge, Bellatrix Lestrange, Wormtail, Marietta Edgecombe, Cho Chang (I don't know why other's had so much trouble finding five, I still have more to put in this list).

Three favourite spells? Expecto Patronus, Accio, Slugulus Eructo

Three favourite potions?  (I agree whith Molly, this one's hard) Polijuice, Felix Felicis, Veritaserum

Favorite member of the Golden Trio? Hermione

Favorite family? Weasley (this one's kind of unanimus)

Favorite antagonist? Young Tom Ridle (from the chamber of secrets)

Favorite death eater? Bellatrix Lestrange (I hate her, but I love hating her)

Favorite chapters from the books? (okey, this one's unfair, how am I gonna remember every chapter?) FROM THE ONES I REMEMBER: King's Cross

Favorite magical residence? Hogwarts/The Burrow (I love hogwarts, but It would be to scary to live there)

Favorite Diagon Alley shop? Till book 5: Olivander's. From book 6: Weasleys' Wizard Wheezes

Favorite Hogsmeade shop? Honeydukes

Favorite Unforgivable Curse? Crucio 

Favorite mode of wizard transportation? Apparation

Favorite Weasley? Ginny

Favorite Order member? Lilly Potter

Favorite DA member? Luna Lovegood

Favorite pet? if you mean "character": Hegwig - if you mean species: phoenix

Favorite Hogwarts professor? McGonagall (and Lupin when he teached)--> coppied from Molly who coppied from Martin

Favorite non-human Hogwarts resident? Fawkes (sorry Dobby, I still love you)

Favorite Tri-Wizard champion? Harry 

Favorite house elf? Dobby (duh)

Favorite Wizard Sweet? Beaerty Botts Every Flavor Beans

Favorite couple? Ron & Hermione

Favorite friendship? Harry & Luna

Moment that will always make you cry?  in the books: Dumbledore's/Siriu's death - Movies: Dobbie's death (in the movies I found this one more emotive than the other 2, hell in the movie I found Hedwig's death more emotive)

Your patronus would be a ______? I'd love to think it would be a phoenix..

What would Amortentia smell like to you? McDonald's french fries-smell ^^.. no setiously, no idea..

You would use Felix Felicis to ______? Take teh Chemistry test I have in a month T.T

Ron/Hermione or Harry/Hermione? Ron/Hermione (why would anyone choose differently?)

James/Lily or Snape/Lily? James/Lily (again who would choose snape?!!)

Do you think Harry Potter is better than Twilight? Let me take my vitamin Duh (swallowing...).... DUH. (that was molly's answer, and I couldn't agree more

Are you going to go see the Deathly Hallows Pt. 1 in theaters? Been there, done that. 

Do you own all the books/movies? All the  books (all of them twice, and two thrice), movies: not yet

Have you ever played any of the video games? yeah, but i never finished any of them :/

Don’t they kind of suck? ... nah, they're kinda good..

Do you think if would be cool to have a pet owl? Hell yeah!!

How about a rat? no... that's didgustin..no matter what Jackie thinks

Have you ever listened to the soundtrack? Does it count when it's on the movies?? XD

Which house would you want to be in? Ravenclaw 

Do you like Draco? No, he is bad, and he is bad at it.

Would you ever enter the Tri-Wizard Tournament? Nah I think I'd rather take my chances jumping from an airplane.

Would you keep your money in Gringotts? Well even though history doesn't support it, I would just to say I have money in Gringotts (plus, no one ver stole money from gringotts).

What class would be your favorite? Charms or Defence Against The Dark Arts (yeah, ain't I original)

Do you think you would enjoy being a witch/wizard? Again.. Duh! (this test has a lot of stupid questions)

Favorite movie set? The Great Hall / Minestry of Magic

Favorite movie scene? The Three Brother's Tail

Favorite scene in the movies not included in the books? Another unanimus answer: Harry and Hermione's dance in the deathly hollows part 1

Scene you were most disappointed didn’t make it into the movie? Dudley's goodbye (another unanimus answer)

Death Eaters or Dumbledore’s Army? DA (an unanimus and a duh answer all in one)

Fred or George? What's the difference? 

The Ministry of Magic or Gringotts? Gringotts

Sirius or Lupin? Sirius

Occlumency or Legilimency? Legilimency

Animagus or metamorphagus? Metamorphagus 

Mermish or Parselmouth? Mermish (I like mermaids, and I don't like snakes so..)

Draco or Lucius? Draco

Peter Pettigrew or Mundungus Fletcher? If I HAD to choose: Mundungus

Whomping Willow or flying Ford Anglia? Ford

Invisibility Cloak or Pensieve? Tough one.. I guess the pensive.. I'd love being able to remember everything and to see things as others do.. even though I love the cloak

Grimmauld Place or the Burrow? Burrow (isn't it obvious after they ask you "Favorite magical residence?")

Werewolf or Inferi? Werewolf

Herbology or Care of Magical Creatures? Care of Magical Creatures (Dah)

Professor Binns or Professor Umbridge? Binns (I believe it's a bit dah too)

Peeves or Nearly Headless Nick? Nick (dah)

Hippogriff or Thestrals? Hippogriff (even though Thresals have the cool invisible thing, I've now hyppogriffs longer, so I've grown more fond of them.. plus they'r prettier)

Durmstrang or Beauxbatons? Beauxbatons

Portkey or Apparition? Apparition (again, isn't it obvious after "Favorite mode of wizard transportation?".. really, this test has a lot of stupid questions)...

The Beginning Of The End

I'm very tired, and I want to go to sleep, but I just feel like this post can't wait.. If I let it wait, I'm gonna loose the excitement I have right now, and I probably will forget a lot of things I'm thinking about now (heck, I'll probably forget some while I'm writing)


So, today I went whith Sofi (my best friend) and her cousins to see HP7 part 1.. Putting aside how much I liked being whith her and her family, and getting to socialize whith them more than I had before (because I always wanted us to be the kind of freinds who are so close that we even get along whith the other's family who have a relationship whith the other's family and are "well" known by the other's family, and this was a 1st (maybe 2nd) step to achieve that),  I have to say, it's just great! I think I can safely say, that is the best movie so far.. I just loved it.. The scenery was great, just as I pictured it, and the whole movie kinda gave me the same feeling as the book (it's hard to explain it but I'm kind of trying to say that it felt pretty similar to the book).. Very few things were left behind, and most of them were just details (there were some things that were a LITTLE important and weren't in the movie, but they still have time to appear in the 2nd movie, and even if they son't it makes no difference)


Unfortunately when I got home, my older sister "V" and my brother "N" were sleeping so I sisn't get to share my experience whith them yet and I was looking forward to doing so (HP is a thing that we three share, along whith my mother, but she's away and she hasn't read the 7th book yet..)




almost SPOILERS
a few of the things that are missing (that as I said are not very important) were an argument between lupin and Harry about how Lupin shouldn't be participating cause of his upcoming baby (alse they didn't talk about the baby yet, but it's pretty obvious that they'll mention him in the next movie)
Also ted's father doesn't appear on this 1st part (and he should have, but then again he'll probably appear in the 2nd part)
this one is not an error but merely a curiosity.. my friend pointed out that the invisibility cloak didn't appear at all (and in the book they use it a lot) my guess is that they'r trying to put the attention of those who hadn't read the book out of the cloak, so it isn't so obvious that harry's cloak is the death's cloak.. b8ut that's just my guess


SPOILERS (if you haven't read the book or you don't remember the deaths)
I must addmit that I almost cryed when Hedwig (I still believe that that death was totally unnecesary) 
And I got even closser to crying whith dobby's death, I did spill one or two tears for him (I kinda wished I cryed more, I don't know why).. (madeye's death didn't afect me very much.. what can I say? I'm not that fond of him, sorry madeye!)


well, I really don't know how to conclude this post... I'll just say that it was agreat movie and I had a very good time

Merci (sorry I don't know why, but I wass unable to find a smaller image)




P.S: THE BIRD BITES (this time th P.S was just to say that XD)

Shyguy Vs College

Okey, 4 days ago I wrote a post talking about how I had just finished my very last year of high school, and (among other stuff) I talked about how I was going to have to leave the place that I had been in for almost all my life, and how I now I would have to face something new whith comepletly new people..

While I was answering the comments I got the answer started to get pretty long (and maybe a little bit off topic) and I decided to make a post about it..

Well, as I said before last friday was my last day of school, and as I said it had been the only place I have ever gone to (studywise) and most of the people I know I met them there (in fact until this year I had almost no friend that was from outside my school).. So as you can realize I haven't really "practiced" meeting new people, ever.. Almost everybody I ever metI met them either befor turning 10 or if I met them after that they were the "new ones" so I was still in a comfortable place while I got to meet them... Add to that the fact that I'm very shy, and you'll realize that I'm socially akward (specially when it comes to new people)

I can only remember 3 recent situations in which I was introduced to a whole group of new people.. the 1st was when my X-men cosplay team met whith another x-men cosplay team, and I did fine, but then I knew half the people in the group so conversation came easier. The 2nd was when I went on the "Dream Trip to U.S.A" and again I did fine (maybe because we were all strangers to each other so we were on the same position), but the first time I was completely alone whith the guys and they started whith all the stupid "macho" talk things got very uncomfortable and when they realized how quiet I was they turned their atention to me, trying to get me to participate more actively in their "conversation" and once I didn't (I just don't feel comfortable whith it) I immediatly became an outsider, of course this didn't interfeer whith me getting along perfectly whith the girls.. Then there's the third and least important time, which was when I got to meet the friends of one of the girls that went on the trip whith me, and it was a bit akward (specially being the center of atenction since I was the "new one" there) but I did manage to talk to them (I didn't talk a lot, but I did talk) but then again I had 3 of the people who went on the trip there whith me to make the situation a bit more comfortable..

So I can manage to socialize with new people when I'm whith people I know, and SOMETIMES when we are all strangers to each other.. But what guarantees that this whil be one of those times, cause sure, we are all (or most of us) gona be strangers to each other, but as I said, SOMETIMES I can talk and get a bit out of my shyness, and even those times, it's hard for me to socialize whith the typical guy (I know I'm a guy, but girls are easier friends to me, well girls and some guys, what people call "weirdos", for example I had no problem whith the X-men guys).. Sure, I have no problem whith just geting along whith the girls, but I don't really want to spend my whole college life being friends only whith the girls.. And yes, my brother and his friends (whith whom I get along great, -they're part of the X-men group-) go to the same university I'm going to, so I do have a back-up plan in case things don't go as planed, but just as I don't want to only socialize with the girls, I don't want to depend on my brother and his friends.

Don't get me wrong, I know I'll probably have little problem socializing whith my future classmates, and I'll probably meet at least one "weird" guy whith whom I wont have to worrry about "macho"-talk but I can't help having those thoughts, because being shy as I am there's a big chance that I have trouble socializing... (don't go thinking that this is the only thing in my mind and that I can't stop thinking about it, in fact it's not something I give THAT much though to.. it's just a worry I have, it's not too important..)

As alway.. Merci!

The End Of An "Era"

Last friday was my very last day of high school.. It was my last-last day of school, the same school I've been going for seventeen

years, ever since I was one year and a half old.. It actually was my second home, almost every friend I've ever had (untill this year) I met them there, the longest friendships started there, I have two friends that have been so for 17 years, which is almost all my life..I have lots of memories in there, and the thought of having to leave that place of having to start a whole new chapter of my life whith a bunch of new people is weird (and maybe even a bit frightening)

after 17 years, being there became familiar and comfortable.. now I have to head of to the new and unknown..We had a great last day, we just hanged out in the clasroom whith the teachers, and we had out uniform shirts signed, and then at lunch we had a bit of a "celebration", whith the typical last day pranks.. For example some of the other guys grabbed some toilet paper and.. well.. let's just say they re-decorated the yard.. It was almost perfect except for 2 things:1: the fact that only half the generation ended the classes that day, and the other half ends in a few weeks (It sounds weird, but it has to do whith how classes are divided)

2: the fact that me and my class had a test a

t the very last period of the very last day, which isn't the best..

After school we had planed a pool-party at my house (since it's extremely close to school) and of course I invited the guys who didn't finish on friday as well.. but in the end very few people

came(we were 7) and since it wasn't

THAT hot by the time we got to my house we didn't get into the pool (that's ok I'm thinking of throwing anotherone when the other half of the generation finishes) after that 3 of us went to another friend's house and just hanged out there till 1 o'clock or so..

It wasn't the last day I had expected,at school it was a little better than I imagined (too bad it wasn't everyone's last day) and at homw it was much worse, don't get me wrong, I had a lot of fun, but it was a bit lame for a last-last school day.. It would have been much better if we had all been together (at least the ones who finished classes that day)

Merci

Maniatic, Complainant And Unbearable

Maniatic, complainant and unbearable.. yep.. apperently that's what I am.. apparently that'sI've become to my family..

I'm not gonna say that they never complained about anything I did, but it wasn't until today that I realized HOW MUCH they complained..

It started a few hours ago when my younger sister my parents and I were returning from a weekend in Punta del Este.. I don't remember exactly what it was, but I was correcting my sister on something she said and she was all "You know what I ment" and I told her that I honestly didn't and then she started whith her typical "you complain about everything!/you criticize everything" (I got to addmit I do criticize a lot of things, but it's only cause the world if silled whith ilogical and stupid things (specialy on comercials and advertisement) and I just can't bare them and I have to talk about it) I know that I can critcize too much sometimes, but you'd think that after 18 years they would have gotten used to it (iyt's not like I criticize them or anyone else for that matter, I criticize things). Then I started pointing out that she complains about everything I say and my parents sort of dismised the hole discussion which got me even more angry than I already was (becasue I'm sick of her not standing anything I say and of their avoiding the discussions in stead of dealing whith them). So I just plugged my in-ear headphones, grabbed my book and isolated my self..

After a while my sister complains about my gum-chewing and so does my mother (not that they don't have the right it just didn't help whith my anger) and then my father asks me something to which I answered unwillingly, so he complained about my bad mood (I actually wasn't in a bad mood, but his comment got me into it) so I just started complaining (maybe yelling) about how he was saying nonesense because I wasn't in a bad mood, and even if I was I had all the right to be because of how annoying my sister was and of how they avoided the arguments instead of dealing whith them and I also said that I believed that by isolating myself I had handled things pretty well.. this only got me some more dismissal...

We met whith my brother for lunch (by this point I WAS in a bad mood) and my brother and I got into a discussion, but not in a bad way it was more of a debate and at some point where I was being a bit stuburn my father whispered to my brother "let it be" which bothered me cause I knew what he ment by that so I said "sue, don't talk to the crazy guy" and my brother told me (in a bad way) that I was interpeting what I wanted to to which I told him not to be stupid and that I knew what my father ment.

A while later my brother (talking about my aunt) made a coment like "fifeteen minutes whith her are more unbearable than 4 hours whith Remy.. no ofense" to which I answered in a totally serious tone"your an idiot.... no ofense" (in a way I'm happy that I couldn't think of a worse insult cause my parents would have grumpled me instead of laughing asd they did, but I ment to say something worse) and then I limited my self to stay quiet and look angry.. while I did this I got to thinking and I realized that they both had been complaining a lot about me being unbearble..

After a while my father pointe dout my bad mood again, and I said "of course that I'm in a bad mood! Because apparently I'm unbearable to all of you now!" while I was borderline crying to wht he answered "no, how can you say that" in a sympathetic tone "R (my younger sister) complains about averything I say, and N (my brother) comes here and makes that stupid joke, how do you want me not to say it?" my brother made coments about me overreacting (kind of treating me as if I was being overdramatic) to which I answered whith a lot of insults.. since we were at a restaurant my mother said that we should stop arguning and finish talking about this at home (which we didn't do.. OF COURSE) because we were almost yelling

-back at home-

while coming back inside after saying hello to the dogs I noticed my pool towel in the kitchen andt I asked my brother "why is my towel here?" while I layed my hand on it "and wet?" and then I atarted complaining "I've told you a million times not to use it, it's always the same whith you!" and he answered "I just grabb one out pof the shelf I don't look which one!" "how hard is it to check that you're not grabbing mine? you have no respect for other people's property! it'sn the same whith my computer!(which he turns off when he thinks that the ionternet is low)" then we got to arguing and yelling until he said "you are an unbearable maniatic and complainant!" so I threw my shoe at him and left.. ther was some more arguin that ende on him saying "fine, I'm sorry" just to get me to leave him alone..

I'm not gonna say I reacted in the best way in every situation, but I'm just angry because I realized that R and N heve been complaining a lot about me lately, and I don't think I deserve it, sure I have my flaws, but I believe that R should be able to live whith my criticizing since we have to live whith a lot of her flaws.. and N usually complains about my stubbournness which I think is a bit hypocrytical since he is stubbourn too..

Merci!!!!

P.S: -the bird bites- I have to say that my family is probably not as bad as I make it seem in these posts.. and we don't fight as much as it seems, it's just that I usually post only the bad stuff, since I need to let it out..

The Haircut

You know, I was planing opn writing about the Halloween weekend today, but while I was talking to my mother about the diferent scolarships offered by that the university I intend to go to (btw, I don't qualify for any of them) something HORRIBLE showed up, something so CREEPY that made me change today's subject, cause there's no way I could dedicate a post to anything else...

It was just an ordinary day, I had just returned from my driving lesson, and was talking to my mother and I was about to go study philosofy for the test I have tomorrow, when I hear the entrance door open, after a while I hear my brother asking a question about our conversation (which proved that he didn't understand what we were talking about at all) and while I was in the middle of my answer I saw IT, he had just came throw the door, and my sister and (who were both facing towards the door) immediatly grabed our heads in shock. My mother who had her back facing towards the door, looked at me, and when she saw my face she turned towards the door

-WHAT DID YOU DO TO YOURSELF?!- she screamed while she covered her mouth whith her hands after noticing my brother's shaved head..

--it was something that no one saw coming, and in retrospective I guess maybe I shouldn't have been surprised (I mean it's not like I should have forseen it but maybe it should have seemed a bit more expected to me).. he had been bugging me for the las few months trying to convince mo of geting MY head shaved next year to do a certain cosplay in which I fit perfectly, but I'm not goba shave my head just for a cosplay-it's just hair, it'll grow back in a few months- he said trying to convince me.. and during one of those conversations, I believe he said he was capavle of doing it just to be a little impulsive (which neither of us is)--

-WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?!- my mother asked as her voice got more and more desperate

-why are you geting like this?it's just hair, it'll grow back ina few months- he replied, not understanding by my mother's reaction

-I just don't get what could make you do something like this!- she said in a calmer voice, but starting to sob/cry

-I don't know, maybe cause I could! maybe to do something I never would! maybe to prove my self that I belong only to me.. I did this whithout asking or telling anyone, and it feels good, I know it looks awfull, but in y¡three months it'll be like it used to-

-you lost your mind.. I don't understand why people should do something "they never would"- my mom said looking at him whith a little bit of disgust

-mom, it's his hair, he has the right to do what he wants whith it- my little sister said (it's weird to see her "defending" him)

-she's right, is he stupid, grazy or a moron for doing this? maybe, but it's still his hair- I added

after 1 or 2 minutes he left, and my sister and I kept talking to my mother about it for a short time

-it's not that big a deal, there's no point on geting like this for something so stupid- I said and I kissed her on the forehead

-mom, when you wanted to get your tatoo they -he and my older sis- said you were crazy to get a tatoo at your age, but you did it anyway cause it's your body.. well, it's his hair and he can do what he wants no mather how crazy- my sis added

-yeah, do you believe him crazy? do you think he's stupid for doing this? well go ahead and tell him, but it's still HIS hair- I agreed

My sister didn't come home till a while later, and my mother and my sister told her about it while they drove her home (so I didn't get to see her face of shock when she saw him, cause she never did, and I wasn't there when they told her) but her reaction wasn't as fun as I though it would be (she's very "uptight" when it comes to looks, what she doesn't like she hates..), in fact it was kind of like a more normal version of my mother's reaction, she didn't cry, but she told me she was about to..

I mean, I don't get why he had to do such thing just to make a point (he does look horrible), there are many other ways to prove what he wanted to prove, I believe it was a little stupid of him.. Don't get me wrong, it's his hair, and it's not that big a deal (I mean if he had just cut it because he liked it, I would've just though that he has bad taste, but it turns out he has bad taste and he's an idiot :P) But, I do got to say, that there's a little merrit on what he did, on the fact that he steped outside his comfort zone and did it it's something that I could never do (and I'm not gonna do it just to prove I could, so I'm gonna die thinking I couldn't do it, and I'm just fine that way)

merci!!

P.S: -the bird bites- some of the "quotes" I made may not be totally accurate, it's just the best I could do to recreate the arguement (I don't remember everything ok?!)

Soff, Beth, when you see him act surprised, because he doesn't know I have a blog and I dpn't want him to (and there's no reasonable explanation of why you two know ;)