Maniatic, Complainant And Unbearable

Maniatic, complainant and unbearable.. yep.. apperently that's what I am.. apparently that'sI've become to my family..

I'm not gonna say that they never complained about anything I did, but it wasn't until today that I realized HOW MUCH they complained..

It started a few hours ago when my younger sister my parents and I were returning from a weekend in Punta del Este.. I don't remember exactly what it was, but I was correcting my sister on something she said and she was all "You know what I ment" and I told her that I honestly didn't and then she started whith her typical "you complain about everything!/you criticize everything" (I got to addmit I do criticize a lot of things, but it's only cause the world if silled whith ilogical and stupid things (specialy on comercials and advertisement) and I just can't bare them and I have to talk about it) I know that I can critcize too much sometimes, but you'd think that after 18 years they would have gotten used to it (iyt's not like I criticize them or anyone else for that matter, I criticize things). Then I started pointing out that she complains about everything I say and my parents sort of dismised the hole discussion which got me even more angry than I already was (becasue I'm sick of her not standing anything I say and of their avoiding the discussions in stead of dealing whith them). So I just plugged my in-ear headphones, grabbed my book and isolated my self..

After a while my sister complains about my gum-chewing and so does my mother (not that they don't have the right it just didn't help whith my anger) and then my father asks me something to which I answered unwillingly, so he complained about my bad mood (I actually wasn't in a bad mood, but his comment got me into it) so I just started complaining (maybe yelling) about how he was saying nonesense because I wasn't in a bad mood, and even if I was I had all the right to be because of how annoying my sister was and of how they avoided the arguments instead of dealing whith them and I also said that I believed that by isolating myself I had handled things pretty well.. this only got me some more dismissal...

We met whith my brother for lunch (by this point I WAS in a bad mood) and my brother and I got into a discussion, but not in a bad way it was more of a debate and at some point where I was being a bit stuburn my father whispered to my brother "let it be" which bothered me cause I knew what he ment by that so I said "sue, don't talk to the crazy guy" and my brother told me (in a bad way) that I was interpeting what I wanted to to which I told him not to be stupid and that I knew what my father ment.

A while later my brother (talking about my aunt) made a coment like "fifeteen minutes whith her are more unbearable than 4 hours whith Remy.. no ofense" to which I answered in a totally serious tone"your an idiot.... no ofense" (in a way I'm happy that I couldn't think of a worse insult cause my parents would have grumpled me instead of laughing asd they did, but I ment to say something worse) and then I limited my self to stay quiet and look angry.. while I did this I got to thinking and I realized that they both had been complaining a lot about me being unbearble..

After a while my father pointe dout my bad mood again, and I said "of course that I'm in a bad mood! Because apparently I'm unbearable to all of you now!" while I was borderline crying to wht he answered "no, how can you say that" in a sympathetic tone "R (my younger sister) complains about averything I say, and N (my brother) comes here and makes that stupid joke, how do you want me not to say it?" my brother made coments about me overreacting (kind of treating me as if I was being overdramatic) to which I answered whith a lot of insults.. since we were at a restaurant my mother said that we should stop arguning and finish talking about this at home (which we didn't do.. OF COURSE) because we were almost yelling

-back at home-

while coming back inside after saying hello to the dogs I noticed my pool towel in the kitchen andt I asked my brother "why is my towel here?" while I layed my hand on it "and wet?" and then I atarted complaining "I've told you a million times not to use it, it's always the same whith you!" and he answered "I just grabb one out pof the shelf I don't look which one!" "how hard is it to check that you're not grabbing mine? you have no respect for other people's property! it'sn the same whith my computer!(which he turns off when he thinks that the ionternet is low)" then we got to arguing and yelling until he said "you are an unbearable maniatic and complainant!" so I threw my shoe at him and left.. ther was some more arguin that ende on him saying "fine, I'm sorry" just to get me to leave him alone..

I'm not gonna say I reacted in the best way in every situation, but I'm just angry because I realized that R and N heve been complaining a lot about me lately, and I don't think I deserve it, sure I have my flaws, but I believe that R should be able to live whith my criticizing since we have to live whith a lot of her flaws.. and N usually complains about my stubbournness which I think is a bit hypocrytical since he is stubbourn too..

Merci!!!!

P.S: -the bird bites- I have to say that my family is probably not as bad as I make it seem in these posts.. and we don't fight as much as it seems, it's just that I usually post only the bad stuff, since I need to let it out..

18 till I die(2) -Bryan Adams-

Well, birthday is 2 minutes away from being over...

At school it felt like any other birthday, a happy special day that's about me! I just love that weird feeling I can't explain, that I get just by knowing it's my birthday...

I was blessed whith good weather (specially after the las couple of shity days we've been having) I slept only 4 and a half hour in my whole birthday, which you may think it's bad, but looking at the bright side I got to sease my birthday time more, but on the other had I'm about to fall asleep on the keyboard (seriously I'm seeng blurry)

At home was a whole different story... Today was the day I celebrated whith family, so my aunts uncles and my godparents came over (my grandparents had previous commitments so they couldn't make it)

At first everything went as any other birthday.. I got to see my godmother who I love and I hadn't seen in a long time, I got enough money present to buy an iPod touch (32gb) on my comming trip to the U.S (my previous iPod died, and I was notified today that he's not comming back.. T.T )

But... at some point, my aunt and my other aunt (actually my uncles wife) got into a pretty big arguement, but it seemed to be a short one (aperently my uncle's wife said somethings to him in a rude way, and my aunt got offended because it was not the place or time to talk to him that way)... but after a while they started again, and again it seemed to have ended, but then I noticed that all three of them were talking in the kitchen... so after that, my aunt stayed sad for the next of the party, and sometimes on the edge of crying (she's extremely emotional and specially lately).. at some points my uncle discused whith his wife in a bad tone, and another aunt (geting a bit confusing to you? sorry whish I could make it clearer) told him not to talk to her that way, because it reminded her of how her ex-husband used to talk to her..

So after my uncle and his wife left, my aunt (the 1st one mentioned) started to get worse, we had to lay her down, and we started talking to her, (she has this problem that she needs to help everyone arround her,and god bless her for that, but spometimes she forgets about herself), we told her that she needed to start worrying more about her self, which she saw as being selfish, I pointed out that in the state she was she couldn't help others, she said that she just couldn't be happy knowing that people she cared about was not, to what I pointed out that if she was going to be unhappy everytime someone she loves is unhappy, then she would always be unhappy, and she said that she IS always unhappy.. she asked "how am I soupused to feel happy knowing that my sister is dead? (I had an aunt who died in september last year, she was 41, and this aunt who I was talking about, was the closest to her) knowing that my brother has an ill kid?"(my little cousin who is 2years old, has some little tumors in her brain and heart since she was born (they seem to be harmless so far) and had an epilecticattack (did I say that rigth?)) so we tryed to make her realise that while her niece was fine, she shouldn't be constantly worrying about that, and we told her that she would have to start dealing whith the fact that her sister's dead (even though it would always hurt), and that she isn't the only one going through that.. One other thing I learned about my aunt today, she's really stubbourn, she just wouldn't give, they sugested her to find profesional help, but nothing..

So, you're probably thinking "what a crappy birthday" and that's what I though too when the argument first started.. I was like "I know they (my aunt and my uncle's wife) hate each other, but they get along just fine every single day, why did they have to choose my birthday to start whith this?" I still feel that way, but I'm not enterily sad that it happened, it's good that we got to talk whith my aunt about her problems, and those kinds of circumstances make me feel closer to people and I like that feeling..

So, in a way I'm happy my grandparents didn't get to come, because this whole situation would have been too much for them, specially grandpa (he has always been abit grumpy and he could never stand this kinds of fights, specially since my aunt died, who can blame him?).. but if they had been there, my aunts and uncles would probably have hold what they had to say, just not to distress them..

Well... it's very late, I'm very tired, so I'm very much(?) going to bed..bye bye

(Is it just me or all my happy fun memories followed by some grim moment since I got this blog??)

Merci Beaucoup for reading thsi extremely long post!!

I just don't understand -the beatles-

Bonjour mes amis!

So... I have this friend(Mati) with whom I had a little figth about a month ago.. (I mentioned him on "Pilot") It isn't the first time this happens, it happened a few times before .. Every now and then in a random week he does something (in the middle of the week) that pisses me of (it's not the same thing always of course) and I get mad and on the weekend he sends apollogetical messages and i forgive him and it goes backas if nothing happened.

But this time it's diferent.. I made a little joke (the kind of jokes that we and my friends make to each other) and he really overeacted and got extremely mad and wrote some not-very-nice things about my sister in my philosophy notes [i mean it's one thing when they joke about it because let's face it it's normal between guys (i personally don't see the fun in it) but it's another when he does it seriously and out of anger].. this time he crossed the line... i got angyer than usual.. in part beacause of the fact that it's not the first time he's a jerk to me and the fact that he always sends those stupid messages like if it made it ok for him to be an idiot (which i pointed out in the middle of the figth).

After a month he send no stupid messages (it's probably because he is to proud and since i pointed it out he is not gonna let me be rigth) in fact after a 2 week vacation i came back to school decided to let everything go even tough he never apologysed because it makes no sense to argue over it... But when i try to make it obvious that i forgave him by talking to him when we are making a group job he either doesn-t reply directly to me or doesn-t reply at all.. i mean is HE now mad at ME?WTF?! and then he sends a message to my best friend about changing the time of our class project meeting and he says (and i quote) "..tell the OTHER ONE(meaning me)" he actually wrote other one in capital letters .. what the hell is that? i mean grow up! stop trying to make it obvious that u r mad! and i see no reason for him to be mad.. my best friend said that she was going to talk to him about it and then tell me what he said.. but untill then i dont get it...

T.Y. again if u read!and even more if u post! ;)