The Eternal Friend

It's not that I'm ugly, it's not that I'm boring, or anything like that (I'm not saying I'm not those things, maybe I am all of them), It's just that (or at least this is what I think) I send out this Friend vibe.. I mean that's the most fiting expleanation I find to the fact that what I find to be good fitting girls for me, whith whom I have very nice relations, just wanna stay friend..

And It's not that it's just the best explanation I could come up with, I kinda see it to.. I've always been good friend with girls,  and I have to admit, even I can't imagine a girl wanting to be other than friends with me... Man, I always liked being close to girls, even today, I love that the two people I can  tell almost anything to are girls.. Now I see it comes at a price..

I guess I could have a shot with somone who I don't have a relationship with somone who I haven't developed a relationship yet, but how can I know if I'm really intrested?? and most importantly, how can I even hava ashot with somone I "don't know" if I can hardly talk with people I don't know (I said HARDLY)..

So, yeap, being a little paranoid, I can say that I'm gonna die alone... But with a lot of girl friends though.. (I actually do really worry about my future that way, If I can't get the girls I know to go out with me, and I hardly ever meet new people, and even if I did, I know my social akwardness would act rigth up )

Maybe I'm just going out of my league (it wouldn't be the first time I think more of myself than I should)

Je Suis Seule..

Socialy Akward

Simplemente odio eso de mi..

Hoy en clase un compañero (Pablo) me pregunto (evidentemente tratando de hacer conversación, porque vino de la nada, y creo que ya todos saben que si tu objetivo es hablar de footlball no venís conmigo) "A vos que te gusta mas, Nacional o Peñarol?"..

Para ser justos me agarro desprevenido, porque hasta el momento veníamos los dos callados escuchando al profesor, pero lo único que pude responderle fue un simple "Peñarol", y cuando me dijo "si?", dije "se", nos miramos por un rato y después cada uno de nuevo a lo suyo..

O sea, se me ocurrió mismo en el momento, responderle un "digamos que Peñarol, la verdad no soy muy fanático" (o algo parecido), no porque no crea que no lo sabe ya, solo para ver si la conversación se prolongaba, pero no me salio.. y apenas muy tarde como para tirarlo se me ocurrió un "Y vos ya tenes un favorito de acá?" o algo de la índole (porque es un Ecuatoriano que se mudo a Uruguay este año desde Venezuela)..

Pero ta, nada, solo "Peñarol"

(hoy tenia ganas de mantenerlo cortito y simple :P)


"Peñarol" Seulement..